Actually, she seems even more into the relationship than I.
She has said that I am perfect for her and could be the Love of her Life.
But then along comes the first anniversary like an enormous boulder to rub salt into the wound that is probably just beginning to heal.
And as you tip into the second year, the daily grind can be even more difficult to bear –making you even more painfully aware of how much your miss your partner being around. But slowly, imperceptibly, each day will start to get a little bit easier.
A post-mortem examination later classed the cause of death as Sudden Adult Death Syndrome - a fatal disturbance in the heart's rhythm, which can strike at any age, and which can affect even fit and healthy people. It was a dilemma, but in the end I decided to say yes, if only for a couple of hours away from being sad, in the company of someone who made me laugh.
I handled my twinges of guilt that it was too soon by reminding myself that Neil would not have wanted me to be alone.
"Though I know I'll never lose affection For people and things that went before I know I'll often stop and think about them In my life, I'll love you more." The Beatles "I can't live if living is without you." Mariah Carey "A widow's refusal of a lover is seldom so explicit as to exclude hope." Samuel Richardson All of us have romantic predicaments; widows (and widowers) seem to have even more. And if they find another lover, while still loving their late spouse, how can these two lovers reside together in their hearts?
And there have been some awkward moments when people assume Alexander and Amy are Adam's children - and Alexander turns round and says: 'My daddy's in heaven.' But if people ever thought badly of us, they didn't say so.People did not relinquish love, and love even enabled some of them to survive the horror and death around them.Death is perceived to be associated with love in various ways.Frank's sickness and death belonged to him, but they had changed my life, too, making demands and requiring sacrifices.The path that led me from wife to widow had been long, crooked, and painful.
So when I saw her expressions in describing the events surrounding his sudden death I felt like if she could have him back she would.